thank you

I've lost myself since long ago.
Since young; family members, people around , even teachers in school tend to compare me and my sister.
Of course there are differences, countless, cause human are born to be different, i believed.
To be compared to my sister, i'm definitely never be as good as her, i've lost almost all my self-esteem.
What's the definition of self-esteem; i always believe that self-esteem is the element that makes someone better.
Once you lost it, all you tend to do is lose it all.
And of course im an egoistic person, but this shit that happened since my childhood crashed me deep inside.
From academic to daily basis, i'm always thought and people always tell me that i SHOULD HAVE learn from my sister.
The most ironic part would be.. she's younger than me, 2 years.
Not forgotten to mention, she's a perfectionist, which makes me even feel more timid than what I am.


And until i really met someone, my current gf, which taught me a lot.
Give me all the attentions that i ever need, teach me about everything.
And of course, she's not the only girl i ever had.
But she's special, she makes me feel special in her way.
I never thought that i'll be so important to someone, NEVER.


never thought that myself is good enough and definitely never reach perfect.
I've flaws, a lot. I'm hard to understand and i dont even understand myself.
But, this girl, she accepts all my flaws, shits that i've done..
She's always more than thank you..


For all my life, i pray for someone like you :)
and thats the reason why am i fascinated by you.
You and only you.
Tourette's syndrome, you never fail to make my girl special.
I love you for who you are and i'm willing to take you forever.