BYE BYEEEEEE :P

This will be the one last time for me to write about us.

From knowing each other > getting together > separated > to someone i barely know > to someone i dont know.

I guess this is a cycle. 

And pretty much it happened to every couple unless, they got married OR end up in good terms. 

So i read what i wrote for you when we were together, i cant imagine i could write all those words. hahahha.

Well, i guess this blog comes to an end, and the other http://heartofyouth.tumblr.com as well.

Though few times i tried my best to post something hoping ill see the blog revive, but it doesnt and pretty sure u as the admin didnt want the blog to revive. HAHAHA.

Im sad on how bad we ended, but being sad doesnt make any difference. I hope u have the best of your life. pursuing things that u love, especially arts, the talents they have in u in marvellous. 

Take care, also, love every bits of you. :) 

As an ex, i would say that youre wonderful, not that perfect, but every flaws u had is beyond wonderful. They made you who you are. 

You insecurities, anxious, quietness, and sometimes your impatience, but all these made you who you are :) your flaws made you beautiful, trust me. 

I guess i should end here. Take care, love. 

:(

to whom i love the most and i hurt the most, im sorry.

I will be there for you, always, for all  my life. 

word

A word that literally asked me to stop trying but I don't.
A word that means a lot, killed me a lil bit more when it spilled out from you.
A word that made me question myself a thousand of question but there is no answer that i want.


DOUBTS.

You know no matter how bad you feel, i'm always there.

Yet, we have so many dreams, almost countless.

We have places that we want to visit, things that we want to do it together..

but will time allow us to do that? 

What if one day it is all broken dreams? What if one day we can achieve what we always wanted?

Dear, hold me, no matter how bad it is, tolerate a lil bit.

Either you or me, and each other. 

I don't want to turn this into a hopeless dream like how i used to believe in.

I don't want all the memories become a piece of jerk that i don't even want to look back. 

I want to believe that we are true, we are worthy. 

We are worth to believe in, we are worth to have it all and all the fights and arguments are worth to remind me of you. 

Cause if one day we fall apart, i know at least all the fights, tears, sorrows and arguments are worth for us to be sadden of. 

the sun

by me. 

by her.

the sun may rise and set.
in different place, different time zone.
but i want you to know that no matter where am i..
I'll always be there for you, love.

TONIGHT I MISS YOU MORE THAN EVER